Finding My Voice: I am THAT boss!
I AM that Boss!
I AM SO Strong, Bright, & Beautiful!
I AM Talented, Brilliant & can accomplish anything I put my mind to!
I DO not live in doubt nor do I live in the past!
Fear does not rule me...I Rule Fear!
I AM in control!
I AM That Boss!
I AM The Chi Quita Mack!
This is the woman you see before you today; however, this was not the woman I was many, many years ago. For years, I always had a deep feeling inside of me that I was placed on this Earth to accomplish so much more, yet I kept finding ways to suppress it. I was putting my time and energy into everyone else's dreams: holding down my family and trying to be the perfect wife and mother.
Have you ever felt that way? That your purpose in life is so much greater, but each and every day you are living like a robot! Going through the same routine and being afraid to have those difficult conversations with your spouse because you don’t want them to think you are trying to outdo them and not be as supportive of their dreams.
Afraid that those who tried to destroy everything you have worked for in the past will somehow come back and try to destroy everything you have worked for now. (That’s a part of my lifetime movie ya’ll …that’s for another blog).
Like all those feelings were real and sometimes those thoughts still pop up!
I remember feeling lost, alone, confused, sad, and always wondering why am I here? What is my purpose? I remember feeling as if I couldn’t really express what I was feeling because I felt that other people would think that I was crazy and I would be misunderstood.
So What Changed?
As I was on my journey to self discovery, I realized that everyone around me was smiling except me. I realized that I was playing the role of a mother, wife, soldier because that’s what I was supposed to do. Now I’m not saying that I do not enjoy those things, but what I am saying is that I was not fulfilled because I knew that there was so much more to me than those things. I knew that I was placed here for a greater purpose. I had gone through so much within my childhood and marriage that all these lessons learned could not be for nothing.
I had to change my way of thinking. I had to stop feeding the negativity and stop looking at all the bad things that happened in my life. I had to reflect on how much I grew from those situations and the lessons I learned from each. I had to look at how all those situations had shaped me into the woman I am today and although I still feel the pain (because I am human) I have brought myself out of each situation by determination.
Determination! Not wanting to feel depressed each and every day! Not wanting to live in fear, self-doubt, nor being afraid of being great!
So I did it! (No, it did not happen overnight) It took :
Practice
Determination
Positive Affirmations
Tears
Headaches
A Lot of Conversations with Fear
But...I found my voice!
I found out who I was! I am where I am today because I am supposed to be here...in this very spot! My purpose is to inspire, motivate, and encourage as many women as possible. Show that our feelings are valid and we are so much more!
We must love ourselves, take care of our mental health, express ourselves openly, and not be afraid of what is coming ahead! There is no such thing as failure as we can learn from each one.
My Advice to You
You better live your life!
Don’t worry about what anyone has to say to you! Follow your dreams, love yourself! Be your own hypewoman and change your mindset. Find the beauty in you and let it shine!
SPEAK UP! (I couldn’t hear you)
Let your voice be heard sis because this is your moment to shine! The only one holding you back from reaching your full potential is yourself.
Put the work in and do not be afraid to fly!
& just in case you forgot...